umbrellafitzgerald

damn, did i have to start the landslide?

oh, did i have to put my hands right up

and walk a man’s routine?

man, i did just that. i ran head-first,

turned into a sad and angry person

but it wasn’t me

so ma’am,

please don’t misunderstand my rust

i’m just a little out of touch

i got a little squeak in my walk

but baby i’m a lamb

follow you until i can’t get up

bring you anything you want

if you give this leash a tug

so maybe i could stand

a little taller when you take my hand

show me how to better make my plans

and i’ll be yours for good

damn. did it have to hit the fan?

what luck, guess it didn’t matter all

that much, but it left a sting

so then,

i up and left and started over again

grew a little more, got older since

my walking shoes had holes in them

dear lady i’m a tramp

ramblin’ until i’m out of land

a whiskey-focused malcontent

on a bitter streak and out of friends

and maybe i offend

but i come to you with open hands

asking for a second chance

to be yours for good

i haven’t been updating too much lately, but here’s a song i was working on a few months ago that i never got around to recording. it’s for a special someone, so give it a listennn. p.s. its in the super rough demo stage. enjoy!

i got a feelin’
shoulda stuck around 
and saw things through
until the end, but i didn’t
mean to leave you hangin’ 
on a ledge
so could you forgive me?
i think this feelin’s
something opening
a door we shut but always missed
i remember the kiss
the  fun we had 
as summer kids
and its been summers since
so many reasons to just turn around
get up and out and overhead
cause i shouldn’t have left
and there’s you standing deserted
in a tattered dress
and so i’m thinkin’ you deserve my best
after the mess that left you sick and breathless

A studio take of my song “Coattails” with some scratch vox. Doing real vocals this weekend and it’s gonna sound even better!

Cease Fire (first take acoustic demo)

every time i see you hits me hard
all the mourning flowers bending in my heart
play a somber ballad and each note it hits like bullets
cause your gun, i mean your gone, i mean you kill me
your presence it still resonates not far
and every time i feel it something different falls apart
cause now it’s just a shadow and its only getting taller
cause the sun sits in between us, it sets the scene up
an uncertain sky the hue of gray and white and hints of blue
and one streak of light pointing to you
walking away

yea time it passes quicker when you’re gone
every day another step away from who you are
when you’re seeing someone different
do ever take a minute
and think of us and how we’re lost or how you miss me?
and so your pictures don’t include me anymore
and i think the guys you’re meeting are a different kind of sort
because we haven’t talked in weekends
and so the old connection weakens
guess we’ll run, guess its been fun, guess we’re just different
and so what might have been a truth
gets caught and tied and then set loose
in the wilderness i look for you, running away

Coattails (extended)

ii saw your namesake
on pretty white paper
a sour phrase
on the tip of my tastebuds
you got your partner
ringed til the reaper
despite my offer,
you opted for cheaper
and then off you went dear
a rear-view mirror and a wave goodbye, aw
so rattle tin cans
close on your coattails
red ghosts of tail lights
head out to the coast air
now listen closely
prose to the prisoner
you close that cell door
i swear i’m not visiting
wont be a witness to it
nor will i bail you out when it’s tried, its just tired

so call me crazy
but you’re in need of saving
your prayers been answered
the results are amazing
so here’s an amen
or a man to go play with
so she delays the decision making
she makes a game out of it
she rolls the dice and see’s
a wolf with a smile
she says i wont wear you home
but i’ll leave you on for awhile
meanwhile..

your calm engagement
we are putting through paces
you fell so hard you were a
kid on the pavement
and our arrangement
our little day trips
are getting dangerous
cause what if my name slips
then its the just curtains callin’
and you’ll be headin’ back to the ol’ domicile
seeking reconcile

cool riff/song i’m working on, nowhere near done or anything, but i did a little demo to share!

i saw your namesake
on pretty white paper
a sour phrase
on the tip of my tastebuds
you got your partner
ringed til the reaper
despite my offer,
you opted for cheaper
and then off you went dear
a rear-view mirror and a wave goodbye, aw
so rattle tin cans
close on your coattails
red ghosts of tail lights
head out to the coast air
now listen closely
prose to the prisoner
you close that cell door
i swear i’m not visiting
wont be a witness to it
nor will i bail you out when it’s tried

Broken Bridges (first acoustic demo) - another early morning demo, but had to get this one down before i forgot it. enjoy!

your dirty looks looks looks
bullet through my armor
change me for the better?
no need for alarm dear
i’m just here to help you
everything okay here?
really did he hurt you?
surely i don’t mind i’ll take a look
and see if i can make it tick
i know a trick trick trick
just lock it in the attic
hide it and forget it
cover it in ashes
photographs and matches
carried with the casket
buried with hatchet
and slowly fades the sad that made you sick
and you can beat those ailments
suddenly, an understanding
that’s been swimming in you deep
finally floats up to the surface
now we lay those thoughts to sleep
your just a crook crook crook
stealing the hearts out
of men with just an arrow
of eyesight from a bar stool
across the room at Harlow’s
a pardon me my darlin
mind if i approach you
i gotta say that i just dig your look
and think that we could make this work


 

i did this version when i first woke up this morning, no vocal warmups or coffee yet, haha. so its rough. but here’s what will be a cool song when all is said and done!

dragonflies. (one track acoustic first take)

cut tooth and nail
i can see your fair skin well
sweet female
with a smirk that dont play fair
grab a cheap well
and an empty barstool chair
here’s a cheap thrill
wait for the novelty to wear
and though you leave that night fulfilled
it’s just a shadow

cut loose today
i once was yours but now im stray
sure feels strange
just when things were going great
the old cliche
“don’t you see we both have changed?”
but what you never thought
was that our love had not
but its just so easy for you..

..so easy for you
to resume on the move
without a beat skipped under your shoe
well, moving along!

cold truth and all..

so luck is gone
and love is dead
lying heartsick in a bed
with a cigarette
and a heavy iron dread
sinking deep into my chest
i can’t escape it anymore

i have a lot of cool ideas for this new song, this demo is hella rough right now but i wanted to get some ideas down. let me know whatchu think.

Faded Parade

my father had the heart of a lion, what a lie
and my mother put us all on her back
and she tried her best to get by
every summer
was another year better off
no letters in the mailbox
our home felt a lot like a three-legged dog
wandering lost in the neighborhood fog
looking for love from all parties involved
this life, it comes with a price
all the trials by fire
bumpy rides and the difficult miles
coincide with some innocent smiles
every winter
a sweater and a snowball fight
a snowflake for the girl you like
hold me tight like a knitted scarf tied
keep me there with hands that your mittens hide
the place where warm and colder collide
and make nice

the tugboat blues (barbones acoustic demo)

seasick dizzy heartbreak
set sail towards the moonlight
the tipsy waves goodbye
i got my telescope to my eye
looking for a new life
a better place to move on
i guess i’m seekin’ out some land
need a better stomping ground to stand
hoping for another chance
waiting in the distance
and at last i’ll hold a hand
i wont ever fold or bet against

and when i finally walk that shore
i wanna be spared
of an awkward reception
i’d just like to be there
without a deep apprehension
such fear, isn’t worth much of a mention
but at times gets the best of me dear
all these tears

could fill the ocean and would still spill
i’m spinnin’ downwards in a whirlpool
abandoned ship to watch the sky
from the very bottom of a lonely life
and maybe i could still try
to sink a little less and stay dry
life could be an island
send a life-raft and i’ll climb on

so when i finally walk that shore
i wanna be spared
of an awkward reception
i’d just like to be there
without a deep apprehension
such fear, isn’t worth much of a mention
but at times gets the best of me dear
it isn’t worth much a mention, but sometimes…

and if i go down i’ll go out like a light
and if i call out to you, then will you reach after me?
i’m headin’ deep enough for each of us
so please could we swim up?

so when i finally walk that shore
i wont have to be scared
they’ll just open their hearts
and be glad that i’m there and tell me to pull up a chair
and call me, “some kind of vessel!” “such a soul!”
such a blessing to hear
i got an old-fashioned message and a bottle full of questions to share
it isn’t worth much a mention but sometimes just listen
cause love, life’s a lesson to fail
that isn’t worth much a mention, but sometimes…